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[Z] is for Zero

The end has come now

zero it is

like it was

My story has come

full circle

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                             ©Ishieta

Participating with the AtoZChallenge with the folks over at: a-to-zchallenge.com

I hope you enjoyed my dark poetry on the alphabets. 

-awe-inspiring blog!

http://satyabratadam.blogspot.com/ -awe-inspiring blog!

somedays, you come across blogs which talk abt a life so different and pictorial stories so lovely - that you forget all that is daily struggle and move onto a very different plain!
Thanks Rajraman (rajreflects.blogspot.com) for sharing :)

Adieu

In this year so far i have learnt.... People only love you (if there is such a thing! anymore?!!), befriend you, are true to you - in so far as it suits them.
You in the equation become irrelevant... especially in front of their needs & wants... or whatever convulated logic works for them!

Lost someone very dear to me to the politics of life! Adieu my friend....my rock!

Natalie du Toit

I just read about: Natalie du Toit

stories of strengths are always found blossoming from tragedies beyond the known & accepted... History and every day shows - victories are in the making all around us.. how each of us will respond to a tragedy (our understanding of it) will define who we are and where we will allow that incident to take us.
will it become an element which eliminates or one which accelerates?
I always look back and wonder, if it weren't for the experiences i labeled bad! would i have become the person i am... would these characteristics - some which i love, and some which i don't, have manifested in this particular manner.

We read of so many success stories... but i wonder of the unsuccessful one's... no one writes about those. And who decided on the label... when does your or my story become a success? and until then, is there no uniqueness in our unsuccessful stories of struggle?

looking at October

My mum keeps asking if i have met any1!!! I havent - the fact that I am not looking notwithstanding... and its confusing when you cant seperate some1 being friendly from some1 actually flirting. So, I stick to being friendly!

I think NY is like a layered cake! The experiences keep changing - every week i see more, understand more, my opinions change...its a roller coaster ride!
NJ is pleasant - its the sub lifestyle...
i love my life in India - coz i have the best of both world's - when I need the hustle bustle a'la NY - I step out n go shopping/ sightseeing/ partying with my friends... when i want suburbia - I stay at home, take a cup of tea, sit on my balcony - look at at the trees and the neighbors kids playing and reading intermittently...perhaps with some music playing in the background - sometimes just the local radio station! :)

My stay has extended than originally planned, and I dont know how to handle the cold winds... If i wear a coat - its too much, if i dont - its too less!

I did have BEER at OKTOBERFEST !!! :)

I have experienced (being the recipient off) first hand the difference between being friends with and being friendly - in this place, everyone is friendly and polite... and thats it.
I fear, we in delhi, are becoming like this too... more often than not i see people paying lip service and then going home and forgetting about it!

Definitely, the life is tougher here, I cant believe I spend 3 hours of my life every day in just travelling!
I see people here, older than my grandma, hopping onto the bus, walking the blocks, carrying their own (big) bags! The only thing my grandma carries is here tiny! bag with some cash and jewels!

I love the trees in autumn - they look gorgeous.
I like the fact that people leave at 6pm - sharp! long hours are not a sign of dedication... You get to keep your job anyway, even if you leave a little early - everyday! As LONG AS you finish your work!
and the option of choosing your shift - so there is an 8 to 4:30 pm shift... part of the reason i like my job back home - these are our timings - so even if i get stuck in a meeting - on a usualy day i can hope to get home by 5:30pm!

I had the most amazing weekend which i spent at my aunt's place - aunty and uncle are beautiful people - it was almost like sitting at the dining table with one's own parents...
I have never known a father, it is precious to me that uncle took the time out to have tea with me - talk about various things - ADVICE me... if i do well, they will not benefit! how selfless of them to be genuine... I may never be able to pay them back in kind!
Is this what it is like to have a dad? someone who doesnt let you take the bus coz its raining?

world vision

...You may not be able to change the world...but you can change the world for 1 person...
~World Vision (donate.org)

supercalifragilisticexpialidocious

According to Wiki:
Roots of the word have been defined, as Richard Lederer writes in his book Crazy English as follows: super- "above," cali- "beauty," fragillistic- "delicate," expeali- "to atone," and docious- "educable," with the sum of these parts signifying roughly "Atoning for educatability through delicate beauty." This explication of its connotations suits the fictional character of Mary Poppins, in that she presents herself as both superlatively beautiful and also supremely intelligent and capable of great achievements. ....HUH!!!

Well, I knew I could not be in New York and not see a BROADWAY show... I mean these are the kind of things which become the highlights of a trip... make some of the most amazing memories of life... and was I right....so, I spend saturday - catching up on my sleep, then going on a nice bus tour of downtown (I think!) - I still have to do the other side - uptown!?

So, I went and saw 'MARY POPPINS' - its fabulous... I would recommned everyone to check it out atleast once.... I mean WOW! I didnt know theatre could be like this... I mean I have attended some theatre in Delhi, both professional and amateur... but I have seen nothing like this... the acting! the music! the songs - oh, b'ful, wonderful songs!... a spoonful of sugar anyone!
http://disney.go.com/theatre/marypoppins/

hmm... I also went to Madame Tussauds - freaky...glad I went once! oh, n did get a pic with Brad/Angeline!

saw the statue of liberty... definitely something u want to go visit - like a picnic trip - I do wish I'd had more time to spend looking at it... a very interesting piece of art... the movies never really prepare u for the real thing! v. b'ful experience! made me wish i had a zoom-in camera for some good shoots of the art work.

oh, HATE the FOOD here.... considering I am a foodie - this has been a nightmare... If I ever had any thoughts of someday in my remote future I might consider moving to US as a career move - I now dont see it happening... tho' never saw never n all... but it will have to be something VERY Irresistable!

Weather in NY is nice this time of the year - Its like a Bangalore summer... it still is... I like it... you can walk around without sweating like a pig.... oh, yea! n anyone can tell I am a tourist...I just stand on the sidewalks n stare at the architecture n shops windows around me....and I am sooo HAPPY to realise I can buy all these things back home... the only thing we dont have is a BROADWAY! but, then Dan's plays are excellent - so, maybe there is still hope for our city of djinns!!!

offcourse, the only ppl I do know in US are in Texas!!!! Could we still be any farther away! atleast, when u r in different continents u know its impossible... but when u r in the same country yet to be so far!!!! interesting... and irritating... and try explaining to your school friends why u cant just drop in for the weekend in tx from ny.... and u dont even want to go into your $ budget! d other school frnds r now in Canada... and offcourse, my 2.....2.... TWO.....!!!!Best Friends are in Delhi on the 1 weekend I am not there!
UNFAIr....unFAir....uNFaiR....

oh, I bought the latest O - Oprah magazine... a FIRST for me... I completely think this lady is awesome... I may not always agree with her views... but it doesnt stop me from appreciating strength of character and DISCIPLINE...which I sadly still lack....
another person who I find is fascinating is Alankrita.... the woman must have secret duracell batteries in her! how do u do a doctorate, work as a lowly worm in the labs, be a good student, a good wife and still find time to call a not-realy-as-yet-a-friend... and still retain humour and the time to blog and yes, read GAP coupons!... I mean...WOW.....do u sleep at all???

Shelly and Anubhuti and Shruti on the other hand have completely abandoned me.. they have disappeared... If u r reading this.... BOO!!!!

oh, WORK is GREAT as usual - completely over whelming, dry and boring... makes me wish I was a magician! a tap of my wand on the laptop... n voila! all reports complete! and PERFECT!

hahaaaaaaaaaaaaaa..... the highlight: a apple scented shampoo.... this is Life... humbling... humourous... it makes u laugh.. it sure makes u cry... and the end, u can only be thankful u r still human....

Hurting teeth!

The thing is:
when u have so much going on ~ on the physical arena of life - that's when your mind plays up - you feel tired- you are inspired to clean your room and your teeth just hurt!

ahum! the thing about hurting teeth is - your entire focus is on not letting it drive u crazy!

unfortunately, thats precisely what it did to me today...as if it wasnt bad enought to be working on a saturday - with a teeth ache (coz many of 'em are hurting) - my productivity and efficiency has hit a new time low! notto mention i feel like yanking my teeth out - almost makes me wish i had dentures like my granma!

on this teeth crunching eve.....Aloha!

I will update this blog as the NEW and IMPROVED...read: older! and WISER ME!

my friend's Roka ceremony

I attended 2 functions today. This post is about the second 1 - my friend's Roka ceremony.

She, my friend that is, is a pretty girl - today she has become beautiful (this is not about her oh-so-gorgeous saree or professional make-up!) - its almost as if some inner light (bulb?? tubelight??) has gone on in her - for the 1st time in a very long time - almost in forever - she has looked happy (in the child's artless innocence and joy genre) - almost as if - she can finally see her home! and knows she is about to reach the sweet haven of home and family!

I am glad that she has found her place - I think it is very important for each one of us to find that place or person who is our home!

May God Bless her and all my wandering soulful friends!

;)

n no, I have not been drinking! - hence, the label.

truly insignificant = bank loans

If you ever want to experience your true insignificance - try to get a loan to buy something which means something to you emotionally... the amount of stories ( u tell and r told!), documents required (almost as if you are going to run away with their ((india's?) money - leaving behind your home/job/family/friends....as if!!!)), interest rates (baba re! you would think the bank eats from the money interests generate!)...and the delays.... mid week the bank was off, the concerned people are in a meeting (??), their systems are down!!! so on and so forth....
I have now reached a point where:
1 - I have left it on God... if it is to be it shall be... else, its only photocopied papers!
2 - I will never get emotional about things UNTIL my loan is approved
3 - savings may be better utilised....let it sit in the bank and EARN interest instead!!!!

hmmm.... I am sure somewhere in all these lengthy processes, it is the customer who is supposed to benefit... as soon as i realise/ receive even an itsy bitsy benefit - I will definitely record it for posterity!!

on this hopeful note.... Good evening!