truly insignificant = bank loans

If you ever want to experience your true insignificance - try to get a loan to buy something which means something to you emotionally... the amount of stories ( u tell and r told!), documents required (almost as if you are going to run away with their ((india's?) money - leaving behind your home/job/family/friends....as if!!!)), interest rates (baba re! you would think the bank eats from the money interests generate!)...and the delays.... mid week the bank was off, the concerned people are in a meeting (??), their systems are down!!! so on and so forth....
I have now reached a point where:
1 - I have left it on God... if it is to be it shall be... else, its only photocopied papers!
2 - I will never get emotional about things UNTIL my loan is approved
3 - savings may be better utilised....let it sit in the bank and EARN interest instead!!!!

hmmm.... I am sure somewhere in all these lengthy processes, it is the customer who is supposed to benefit... as soon as i realise/ receive even an itsy bitsy benefit - I will definitely record it for posterity!!

on this hopeful note.... Good evening!

SHE [poem]

Posted on caferati on Jan 14, 2007.
my 1st poem for this year :)

The aftermath of watching the movie 'Blood Diamond'...

~~~~~SHE~~~~~

Where is she?
No no, not the limping one!
I want to meet the strong one
Strong of soul and spine
Strong of speech
Strong of stance
Who is this strung together with scotch tape?

~~~~~~~~~

cheers,
I

Thinking

Just when you have loads of material that you would like to think about - reflect upon - internalize and spew some poetry from - Wham!!! you are over loaded with work and a killer schedule.... thoughts??? I am not really sure what I am thinking these days ... my list of things to work thru is going up.... and i am afraid by the time i finally sit down the memories will be too far past and hazy for me to juice them for any revelations!!!!

Another trip I managed to do was to RISHIKESH - I went river rafting (yea yea, I am getting more adventerous with each season) - got dunked and then plunged into the ganges - now i know whats its like to feel your body freeze limb by limb - If I thought Delhi winters were freezing cold - now i have been disabused of such a notion!!!
It's b'ful offcourse - some of the pics are up on flickr...the rest will come next week...

oh yea - when i began the year i had begun to wonder if i was in too deep(offcourse i knew i would have to work hard and be really smart) but i was beginning to wonder whether i had overestimated my ability to cope .... In between I was almost sure i would take forever to pass the mark - but now I AM VERY PROUD to share that I received my CERTIFICATION - level 1 (duh!) and that too in the 1st attempt and within a month!!!! huff!!! Thank god!

now onto the next level ... here I come!

been extremely busy - It's kind of sweet for people wonder if i have disappeared - well. I havent I am just enjoying work - That's my official line for working long n odd hours :)
The saving grace - being able to smile and look into his eyes(however, occasionally)... my god, eyes are soo expressive - I guess so must mine be! if only now some good will come of it!

There are some v. intelligent people who write very interesting blogs - I have FINALLY updated the links from my blog to theirs...

:)

Music...

Some songs just speak to you at a very base level - Akon's 'I want to love you' with snoop is 1 such no. for me - and my very first download ever!!!!
and now this song has memories too :)

Another very interesting voice - Anastacia - definitely someone i would like to read about and hear more from....