Sunday, November 04, 2007

looking at October

My mum keeps asking if i have met any1!!! I havent - the fact that I am not looking notwithstanding... and its confusing when you cant seperate some1 being friendly from some1 actually flirting. So, I stick to being friendly!

I think NY is like a layered cake! The experiences keep changing - every week i see more, understand more, my opinions change...its a roller coaster ride!
NJ is pleasant - its the sub lifestyle...
i love my life in India - coz i have the best of both world's - when I need the hustle bustle a'la NY - I step out n go shopping/ sightseeing/ partying with my friends... when i want suburbia - I stay at home, take a cup of tea, sit on my balcony - look at at the trees and the neighbors kids playing and reading intermittently...perhaps with some music playing in the background - sometimes just the local radio station! :)

My stay has extended than originally planned, and I dont know how to handle the cold winds... If i wear a coat - its too much, if i dont - its too less!

I did have BEER at OKTOBERFEST !!! :)

I have experienced (being the recipient off) first hand the difference between being friends with and being friendly - in this place, everyone is friendly and polite... and thats it.
I fear, we in delhi, are becoming like this too... more often than not i see people paying lip service and then going home and forgetting about it!

Definitely, the life is tougher here, I cant believe I spend 3 hours of my life every day in just travelling!
I see people here, older than my grandma, hopping onto the bus, walking the blocks, carrying their own (big) bags! The only thing my grandma carries is here tiny! bag with some cash and jewels!

I love the trees in autumn - they look gorgeous.
I like the fact that people leave at 6pm - sharp! long hours are not a sign of dedication... You get to keep your job anyway, even if you leave a little early - everyday! As LONG AS you finish your work!
and the option of choosing your shift - so there is an 8 to 4:30 pm shift... part of the reason i like my job back home - these are our timings - so even if i get stuck in a meeting - on a usualy day i can hope to get home by 5:30pm!

I had the most amazing weekend which i spent at my aunt's place - aunty and uncle are beautiful people - it was almost like sitting at the dining table with one's own parents...
I have never known a father, it is precious to me that uncle took the time out to have tea with me - talk about various things - ADVICE me... if i do well, they will not benefit! how selfless of them to be genuine... I may never be able to pay them back in kind!
Is this what it is like to have a dad? someone who doesnt let you take the bus coz its raining?


Tuesday, October 30, 2007

reality tv - cant watch it

Can you believe the CRAP these reality shows are?
n i only check 'em out to have an opinion - if i like i stay with em, but some...you HAVE to change the channel...for instance:
The Bachelor - one feels so sorry for these women - if this is true... and if it is staged - then i feel even more sorry for all of them... relationships are tough enough without national embarassment and disgrace!
and are they actually suggesting and showing the bachelor sleeping with the FINALISTS (reality anyone?) of the show... oh, thank god for the good 'ol fashioned saga of love and lust and batting eye lashes and blushes and dates and cakes...!

Friday, October 19, 2007

flash

sometimes, time isnt enough... can I afford to forget...should i move on - only to find i have set myself up again? for until i can forgive and trust again... chances will always have the same results...
sometimes, distance - time or space makes reality fade, the ugly truth takes on the sheen of healthy undercurrents... but, when I come face to face with the prince - he is still the ugly monster who wants to eat my heart for dessert (I am not even the main course!)...
....d story continues....

Thursday, October 18, 2007

Updates...mid month-Sept

After the lights of NY...NJ seems alian... I mean NJ is quiter than even the outskirts of any of our cities...in almost all indian cities/towns and villages(here, i guess),in the evenings, you will always see some children playing, some people strolling out on the streets, you can hear people and families...here, by the time i come back - 8pm!!!! {what is 8pm i ask you?} there are some (read:2-3) people waiting for a bus into NY and ONLY cars on the streets rushing towards their destinations (offcourse, they ALL spare a cursory glance for me - which is a change, pleasant or not, from NY where people would go right through me if they could!...i wonder, what they must think of this woman carrying a back pack like a kid and a purse like a lady and standing at a gas station corner!)....I digress...time for a color change...NJ is a pleasant surprise...well, atleast the part i am in... and a b'ful name like meadowlands... oh, and today i made my 1st acquintance...with dr.s/proffs no less! and they looked just like normal ppl (this comment comes from my complete inaptitude at anything academic but a dream of being well read and an intellectual -- some day!)....

It has dawned on me:
--Fruits are also FOOD for vegetarians!
-- the commute is worth it for the scenic view :)
-- too much diet coke is STILL a lot of soda! and it causes a tummy upset!
-- I have no concept of $ (I u'stand Rs.100 vs. Rs. 10 but not $10 vs. $1.....)

My progress so far:
--I have understood the concept of uptown/downtown... and as long as i am in manhattan - i can get around! once i know the complete address that is!
-- I have found a good and economical b'fast place -- and which doesnt serve burnt coffee or bagels (unlike the deli next door to my previous hotel)
-- This city - like all others - has its good and bad.... the ugly -luckily i havent seen...(plz! say! tOUcH wOoD :)



Things which fascinate me/ make me want to jump off my yatra vahan (journey vehicle) and go CliCk....cLicK....cLICk.....:

a restaurant in central part with angel lights and lanters...MaGik...I did take pics - i just hope to come out as awesome as the experience

statue of liberty - saw it from the cruise ship... I want to go look closer... I am surprised i found such an overused piece of sculpture to be so fascinating!

homes done up for Halloween.. this is something i have never seen before...the houses look like homes... so comfortable and inviting...truly havens!
(tho' this does leave me wondering - if u r sitting inside yr house - how r u enjoying the garden/window display).... are these for us?
My commuting and travelling is so worth it... i am exploring parts of this city which as a tourist i wouldnt have...

I am very glad in this 1 trip i am getting to experience both lifestyles here in US -the madness of NY - the heart and pulse.... and the suburbs... both lives are so different...yet overlap...

i didnt think i would stay here so long... and I wonder if I have managed to cover a lot here or not! I definitely appreciate this place more each day... I like this place more than when i got here....now all i need is 10,000 - pick yr currency ($/Rs.) a few days off and i will get you reels and reels of AWESOME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

cheers,
I

Wednesday, October 10, 2007

world vision

...You may not be able to change the world...but you can change the world for 1 person...
~World Vision (donate.org)

Monday, October 08, 2007

supercalifragilisticexpialidocious

According to Wiki:
Roots of the word have been defined, as Richard Lederer writes in his book Crazy English as follows: super- "above," cali- "beauty," fragillistic- "delicate," expeali- "to atone," and docious- "educable," with the sum of these parts signifying roughly "Atoning for educatability through delicate beauty." This explication of its connotations suits the fictional character of Mary Poppins, in that she presents herself as both superlatively beautiful and also supremely intelligent and capable of great achievements. ....HUH!!!

Well, I knew I could not be in New York and not see a BROADWAY show... I mean these are the kind of things which become the highlights of a trip... make some of the most amazing memories of life... and was I right....so, I spend saturday - catching up on my sleep, then going on a nice bus tour of downtown (I think!) - I still have to do the other side - uptown!?

So, I went and saw 'MARY POPPINS' - its fabulous... I would recommned everyone to check it out atleast once.... I mean WOW! I didnt know theatre could be like this... I mean I have attended some theatre in Delhi, both professional and amateur... but I have seen nothing like this... the acting! the music! the songs - oh, b'ful, wonderful songs!... a spoonful of sugar anyone!
http://disney.go.com/theatre/marypoppins/

hmm... I also went to Madame Tussauds - freaky...glad I went once! oh, n did get a pic with Brad/Angeline!

saw the statue of liberty... definitely something u want to go visit - like a picnic trip - I do wish I'd had more time to spend looking at it... a very interesting piece of art... the movies never really prepare u for the real thing! v. b'ful experience! made me wish i had a zoom-in camera for some good shoots of the art work.

oh, HATE the FOOD here.... considering I am a foodie - this has been a nightmare... If I ever had any thoughts of someday in my remote future I might consider moving to US as a career move - I now dont see it happening... tho' never saw never n all... but it will have to be something VERY Irresistable!

Weather in NY is nice this time of the year - Its like a Bangalore summer... it still is... I like it... you can walk around without sweating like a pig.... oh, yea! n anyone can tell I am a tourist...I just stand on the sidewalks n stare at the architecture n shops windows around me....and I am sooo HAPPY to realise I can buy all these things back home... the only thing we dont have is a BROADWAY! but, then Dan's plays are excellent - so, maybe there is still hope for our city of djinns!!!

offcourse, the only ppl I do know in US are in Texas!!!! Could we still be any farther away! atleast, when u r in different continents u know its impossible... but when u r in the same country yet to be so far!!!! interesting... and irritating... and try explaining to your school friends why u cant just drop in for the weekend in tx from ny.... and u dont even want to go into your $ budget! d other school frnds r now in Canada... and offcourse, my 2.....2.... TWO.....!!!!Best Friends are in Delhi on the 1 weekend I am not there!
UNFAIr....unFAir....uNFaiR....

oh, I bought the latest O - Oprah magazine... a FIRST for me... I completely think this lady is awesome... I may not always agree with her views... but it doesnt stop me from appreciating strength of character and DISCIPLINE...which I sadly still lack....
another person who I find is fascinating is Alankrita.... the woman must have secret duracell batteries in her! how do u do a doctorate, work as a lowly worm in the labs, be a good student, a good wife and still find time to call a not-realy-as-yet-a-friend... and still retain humour and the time to blog and yes, read GAP coupons!... I mean...WOW.....do u sleep at all???

Shelly and Anubhuti and Shruti on the other hand have completely abandoned me.. they have disappeared... If u r reading this.... BOO!!!!

oh, WORK is GREAT as usual - completely over whelming, dry and boring... makes me wish I was a magician! a tap of my wand on the laptop... n voila! all reports complete! and PERFECT!

hahaaaaaaaaaaaaaa..... the highlight: a apple scented shampoo.... this is Life... humbling... humourous... it makes u laugh.. it sure makes u cry... and the end, u can only be thankful u r still human....

ink

There is something so speccial about writing with an ink pen on nice paper... somehow, makes e'thing so much rosy :)

Sunday, October 07, 2007

Fact- I have lost many of my friends lately.... oh, we are very polite about it, but just soo busy with our lives that we are unavailable...n so i count them as acquintances but friends - - there needs to be more!
the philosophy behind this: ppl serve their purpose in life, once they have taught their lesson - they move on....

in the last 2-3 days, 2 ppl have referred to me as jaded... n they sure werent talking about my green earings...

how much self we give away without realising it. until not much is left...

dreams are magic....they make u invincible for u believe!

paradox life

The more things change the more they remain the same... .the further you go down a road, the more you recognise land marks from places visited before, the more I run towards my future the more I find myself in the past...

paradox is life...

Monday, September 24, 2007

Videshi Yatra! -23 Sept 07

So, I love travelling, ans since this trip is a big deal for me on many levels - i thought i would blog it n capture it... A travelougue of my days here in the US.

I arrived today morning...sunday, 23rd September 2007...
loong flight (for someone travelling outside india for the 1st time - 15 hours!!!!) was a lil scared of the air-hostesses...they r so serious n umm, makes u almost apologise for calling them... filled out multiple forms, stood in so many lines that i am convinced i lost some weight!!!
no no, dont worry, I aint losing those precious kilos..i had a cheese cake post dinner to make up for it! n man was it worth it! I wonder WHY until NOW i hadnt discovered Cheesecake!

oh, they actually charge u for the luggage trolley at the airport!!! weird eh?

I am in town in time for the United Nations meet n there is a lot of news coverage of the visit by Iranian President Mahmoud Ahmadinejad.... its impact on me... the gridlock in the coming week will impact the travel routes... n i still have to figure out d way from my hotel to office - the shortest n economical 1....instead i think over the next 1 week i will explore NY city through detours n spend a lot of time ogling at the buildings n marvelling at the architecture (!)

obviosly, my clock is still somewhere over europe! i feel like the matrix hour... neend nahi aati hai... n then can wake up....ended up running late for dinner!
went to an exclusive italian restaurant (cant remember the name - if i find out i will update) -- decent food...Yummy cheesecake, v. nice latte :) , LIVE PIANO music... apparently u can only get a reservation here thru' shhhh... jaan-pehchaan!

so many places i want to visit... heading the list : Starbucks n Barnes n noble - should be able to cover these 2 trow!

well, good night, dear blog....until trow :)

Wednesday, August 29, 2007

blah-blah

Had a relaxed weekend (for the 1st time this year, i am sure!)...slept a lot, read a few pages of many books... rediscovered my interest in painting candles~

saw Heyy Babyy... not worth my time or money :(
d only good thing - i loved shah rukh khan's new look - v. suave n young!

been trying to catch up with 2 frnds - i think finally this evening we will manage! we have actively been trying for over a week now - our schedules just keep clashing or we are so tired that even yawning is too much work!
so, tonite, we meet n Gossip! gossip! gossip!

life is about - i dont know what...

Sunday, August 12, 2007

August

random thoughts.....

~ some1 v nicely wrote on my pg - they liked reading my blog...yea!!!
it feels really good to know that someone out there reads yr blog n likes it too :) Thanks

~ i just saw a rerun of koffee with karan show with katrina kaif - can u b any more boring!!!

~ I have finally managed to get my hands on the latest harry potter (mum was enjoying it!)

~ I splurged on a few books..... :) v.v. interesting 1....

~ My bestest friend was in town, spent a wonderful time together

~ another friend was in town, spent v. lil time together - wld love to get together more often....

sometimes, i wish all my frnds lived close by so i cld spend time with them without having to tackle schedules and day off's and keep looking out fr economical tckts!!! or else, i wish i just had a pair of wings!!! :)

~ i learnt - smtimes an interest on further investigation is not something u truly want to invest yrself in..... n so u hv to b ok with it - n let go....

cheers....

my 1st Tag

Hey Iris... I wrote this as soon as u tagged me...but coz of sm inet connection goof up..i lost it.... so, here it goes agn!


My 1st TAG..... n my first try at it........


3 things that scare me
~ losing my loved ones
~ Scary movies…scary anything…
~ Motion at high altitudes

3 people who make me laugh/smile
~ Payal
~ My mum
~ Tejas
~Shelly
~Anubhuti
~Strawberry

Hey, 6 is a multiple of 3!

3 things I love
(clearly this is about Things n not people…)
~ my car
~my laptop
~my phones

3 things/kinds I hate
~ manipulators
~ abuse and abusers!
~ being misunderstood

3 things I don't understand
~ Why it’s so difficult to lose weight!
~ Why money makes the world go round
~ Where are all the amazing men!?

3 things on my desk
(I assume this is my work desk, as compared to my study desk at home)
~ Different colour pens
~ Lots of papers :(
~ Water bottle

3 things I’m doing right now
~ Working long hours
~ trying not to fall for Mr. Wrong
~ growing my hair J

3 things I want to do before I die
~ travel the world
~ set up an Animal shelter
~ touch many lives – positively!
(Make a lot of money – go shopping, go for holidays, go to the Spa, look hot, be loved)

3 things I can do
~ Talk/ chat/ gossip/ make non-sense
~ make you laugh/smile
~ Do cross-stitch embroidery

3 things you should listen to
~ me giving GYAN!
~ Rain
~ Blue’s ‘1 love’ (its kinda funny how life can change...can flip 180 in a matter of days.....)

3 things you should never listen to…
~ negative self talk
~ negative people
~ your boss!

3 things i'd like to learn
~ Violin
~ Languages
~ Pottery

3 favorite foods
~ Cheese
~ Potato
~ Lady fingers

3 beverages I drink regularly
~ Coke
~ Coffee
~ Tea

3 childhood TV shows
(childhood was looong ago… so here’s my teenage ones!)
~ Beverly hills 90210
~ Buffy – the vampire slayer
~ The Practice

3 childhood books
~ A lot of Enid Blyton
~ Investigation series - Nancy Drew/ Famous 5/ Secret 7/ Hardy boys
~ Mallory Towers series

If you havent done this.... consider yourself TAGGED!
:)

Tags...

Hey Iris... I wrote this as soon as u tagged me...but coz of sm inet connection good up..i lost it.... so, here it goes agn!





My 1st TAG..... n my first try at it........
3 things that scare me
~ losing my loved ones
~ Scary movies…scary anything…
~ Motion at high altitudes

3 people who make me laugh/smile
~ Payal
~ My mum
~ Tejas
~Shelly
~Anubhuti
~Strawberry

Hey, 6 is a multiple of 3!

3 things I love
(clearly this is about Things n not people…)
~ my car
~my laptop
~my phones

3 things/kinds I hate
~ manipulators
~ abuse and abusers!
~ being misunderstood

3 things I don't understand
~ Why it’s so difficult to lose weight!
~ Why money makes the world go round
~ Where are all the amazing men!?

3 things on my desk
(I assume this is my work desk, as compared to my study desk at home)
~ Different colour pens
~ Lots of papers
~ Water bottle

3 things I’m doing right now
~ Working long hours
~ trying not to fall for Mr. Wrong
~ growing my hair J

3 things I want to do before I die
~ travel the world
~ make my mom happy - gift her: a home, a car, a piano, no-limit a/c with Teksons...etc
~ touch many lives – positively!
(Make a lot of money – go shopping, go for holidays, go to the Spa, look hot, be loved)

3 things I can do
~ Talk/ chat/ gossip/ make non-sense
~ make you laugh/smile
~ Do cross-stitch embroidery

3 things you should listen to
~ me giving GYAN!
~ Akon’s ‘I wanna love you’
~ Blue’s ‘1 love’

3 things you should never listen to…
~ negative self talk
~ negative people
~ your boss!

3 things i'd like to learn
~ Violin
~ Languages
~ Pottery
(this used to say Dance - I tried it... structured class for dance isnt for me.. I love the JOY of letting myself go n dancing!)

3 favorite foods
~ almost e'thing my mum cooks...
~ Potato
~ Lady fingers

3 beverages I drink regularly
~ Coke
~ Coffee
~ Tea

3 childhood TV shows
(childhood was looong ago… so here’s my teenage ones!)
~ Beverly hills 90210
~ Buffy – the vampire slayer
~ The Practice

3 childhood books
~ A lot of Enid Blyton
~ Nancy Drew/ Famous 5/ Secret 7/ Hardy boys
~ Mallory Towers series

If you havent done this.... consider yourself TAGGED!
:)

Tag – Few random facts and crazy habits

Iris tagged, n offcourse i'm late...but here it goes!!!!

Tag Rules:
1) Each player starts with 8 random facts/habits about themselves.
2) People who are tagged, write a blog post about their own 8 random things, and post these rules.
3) At the end of your post you need to tag 8 people and include their names. Don’t forget to leave them a comment and
4) If you fail to do this within eight hours, you will have to acknowledge Quicksilver as the Queen of the Universe (*I already did, and now it's your turn guys*)

*********************************************

1. I have a monthly Pizza dinner ritual with my mum

2. I am a couch potato - i love tv/ movies/ BOOKS

3. I enjoy Flirting - i think its a positive habit!

4. I dont like milai/cream in my tea/java/milk

5. I live to eat... (n not eat to live)

6. I like drinking java, i like hanging out at coffee shops

7. I like perfumes/ scents - aromatherapy

8. i like to gossip - i even ssh.... read celeb gossip columns!!!




phew...done..this was tougher than i thought... but then iris is rite, that is the interesting thing about tags--- it makes u think - and its an opportunity to surprize yrself!

Yo Reader - u r tagged :)

Sunday, July 01, 2007

I am a COMMUNICATOR...my life is about people - talking to people, reaching out to them.... just being there.... my phone is my lifeline....... sometimes it does become a prison (read: office calls!) ... otherwise, its a tool i have chosen to make my life better... I LIKE my friends!

This outburst is a direct result of talking with 1 of my good friends (Shelly) after 6 weeks! i like the fact that we are ourselves, jump from topic to topic... and make loads of sense to each other (only) and have great fun....

i know distances and schedules impact, but i guess when a person is important - u make an extra effort... SHELLY - You are a friend worth that extra effort, going that extra mile!!!!

Did i mention....we are going dancing girl!

Saturday, May 26, 2007

Hurting teeth!

The thing is:
when u have so much going on ~ on the physical arena of life - that's when your mind plays up - you feel tired- you are inspired to clean your room and your teeth just hurt!

ahum! the thing about hurting teeth is - your entire focus is on not letting it drive u crazy!

unfortunately, thats precisely what it did to me today...as if it wasnt bad enought to be working on a saturday - with a teeth ache (coz many of 'em are hurting) - my productivity and efficiency has hit a new time low! notto mention i feel like yanking my teeth out - almost makes me wish i had dentures like my granma!

on this teeth crunching eve.....Aloha!

I will update this blog as the NEW and IMPROVED...read: older! and WISER ME!

Saturday, May 05, 2007

need friend - wanna study

I: I am thinking of studying further
A: ok! have u thought what u want to do?
I: yeah, I have my course picked out - just dont know about the speacialisation....
A: oh, ok, so if u know what u want to do; then all u need is moral support...

Now, post this conversation with a very supportive (and cute) friend about my worries of persuing anything resembling books - stydying - exams !!!!- I am thinking - no 1 told me this was a support thing too - n that made so much sense... we always find it easier to achieve those personal goals in which we have a friend encouraging us from the sidelines - egging us on - believing that we can do it! so even when in fear and doubt - u call each other - over a telephone call get a shot of courage and get back on the proverbial horse - and manage somehow, perhaps just barely to MEET your goal.

so, if I do decide to persue further stydying in any area - part of my success strategy will be putting my friend support structure in place - before i begin - ensuring my ability to stick to my path even in tremelous times!!!

I dont want to wear my heart on my sleeve!

The thing about love - we girls - r in love with the idea of being in love... isnt that why its soo easy to build castles in the air!
this reminds me of uday chopra's role in Dhoom - just met the girl n already dreams of his marriage n babies!

I had my heart broken - once - I swore to myself I would never again give my heart to any1. but i am still in love with the idea of being in love - my heart is worn on my sleeve...still....silly, silly girl!

my friend's Roka ceremony

I attended 2 functions today. This post is about the second 1 - my friend's Roka ceremony.

She, my friend that is, is a pretty girl - today she has become beautiful (this is not about her oh-so-gorgeous saree or professional make-up!) - its almost as if some inner light (bulb?? tubelight??) has gone on in her - for the 1st time in a very long time - almost in forever - she has looked happy (in the child's artless innocence and joy genre) - almost as if - she can finally see her home! and knows she is about to reach the sweet haven of home and family!

I am glad that she has found her place - I think it is very important for each one of us to find that place or person who is our home!

May God Bless her and all my wandering soulful friends!

;)

n no, I have not been drinking! - hence, the label.

Sunday, April 22, 2007

April

It has been a hectic 3 weeks for me.... was bossom buddies with frustration and exasperation and near hopelessness.

I have another 5 weeks to go before I can breathe easy - It's scary to be honest...even my mum worries if physically i can cope with such a demanding schedule... luckily she does not question by ability or intellect!

So, its rather interesting that i came across the quote on FEAR....

some more things i learned:
  • you have to learn to say NO - I dont as yet, but i must begin - its a question of survival - you cant be what everyone else wants at the cost of losing out on things you want!
  • I need my 8 hours of sleep, some peace n me time, some fun time
  • My Diary - has helped me be organised and structured! - else in the clutter of my schedule i would have become synonymous with chaos!
  • Not all opportunities need to be taken - some have to be left, some approached at a later stage when u can accomodate it better in the event that it takes off n is successful

Ramblings:

The new traffic rules are difficult - especially the no phone calls while driving!!! This law has pretty much brought my communication to a grinding halt!

right now, i have so many things on my platter, and not enough time to work on them in the manner i would prefer! what to do? what to do? how to manage all and do them justice too???

I await some insight! a light bulb moment!

Summers are here.... in the afternoons' when I return from work - even the poor a/c throws lukewarm air!

until later,

Summer is here... can spring be far behind :)

Quote on Fear

After a very long time, I took out the time (d only way really to find time) and browsed 1 of my favourite sites - Oprah.com... I came across this quote... and wanted to share it!

"I saw a great quote on a church sign about a year ago that has always stuck with me: Fear is a prison we make for ourselves. That is a truthful and powerful statement. Fear can hold us back from our dreams, and it is just an imaginary prison that we make for ourselves. Once you take the first step past it, though, you see it isn't so scary after all."

— judyanni

Thursday, February 22, 2007

truly insignificant = bank loans

If you ever want to experience your true insignificance - try to get a loan to buy something which means something to you emotionally... the amount of stories ( u tell and r told!), documents required (almost as if you are going to run away with their ((india's?) money - leaving behind your home/job/family/friends....as if!!!)), interest rates (baba re! you would think the bank eats from the money interests generate!)...and the delays.... mid week the bank was off, the concerned people are in a meeting (??), their systems are down!!! so on and so forth....
I have now reached a point where:
1 - I have left it on God... if it is to be it shall be... else, its only photocopied papers!
2 - I will never get emotional about things UNTIL my loan is approved
3 - savings may be better utilised....let it sit in the bank and EARN interest instead!!!!

hmmm.... I am sure somewhere in all these lengthy processes, it is the customer who is supposed to benefit... as soon as i realise/ receive even an itsy bitsy benefit - I will definitely record it for posterity!!

on this hopeful note.... Good evening!

SHE [poem]

Posted on caferati on Jan 14, 2007.
my 1st poem for this year :)

The aftermath of watching the movie 'Blood Diamond'...

~~~~~SHE~~~~~

Where is she?
No no, not the limping one!
I want to meet the strong one
Strong of soul and spine
Strong of speech
Strong of stance
Who is this strung together with scotch tape?

~~~~~~~~~

cheers,
I

Monday, February 12, 2007

Thinking

Just when you have loads of material that you would like to think about - reflect upon - internalize and spew some poetry from - Wham!!! you are over loaded with work and a killer schedule.... thoughts??? I am not really sure what I am thinking these days ... my list of things to work thru is going up.... and i am afraid by the time i finally sit down the memories will be too far past and hazy for me to juice them for any revelations!!!!

Another trip I managed to do was to RISHIKESH - I went river rafting (yea yea, I am getting more adventerous with each season) - got dunked and then plunged into the ganges - now i know whats its like to feel your body freeze limb by limb - If I thought Delhi winters were freezing cold - now i have been disabused of such a notion!!!
It's b'ful offcourse - some of the pics are up on flickr...the rest will come next week...

oh yea - when i began the year i had begun to wonder if i was in too deep(offcourse i knew i would have to work hard and be really smart) but i was beginning to wonder whether i had overestimated my ability to cope .... In between I was almost sure i would take forever to pass the mark - but now I AM VERY PROUD to share that I received my CERTIFICATION - level 1 (duh!) and that too in the 1st attempt and within a month!!!! huff!!! Thank god!

now onto the next level ... here I come!

been extremely busy - It's kind of sweet for people wonder if i have disappeared - well. I havent I am just enjoying work - That's my official line for working long n odd hours :)
The saving grace - being able to smile and look into his eyes(however, occasionally)... my god, eyes are soo expressive - I guess so must mine be! if only now some good will come of it!

There are some v. intelligent people who write very interesting blogs - I have FINALLY updated the links from my blog to theirs...

:)

Music...

Some songs just speak to you at a very base level - Akon's 'I want to love you' with snoop is 1 such no. for me - and my very first download ever!!!!
and now this song has memories too :)

Another very interesting voice - Anastacia - definitely someone i would like to read about and hear more from....

Wednesday, January 24, 2007

20-21 Jan, 2007 - Jaipur Lit Festival

My Thought processess ( I am the long winded sorts) on my journey to and back from the Jaipur Literature Festival and mostly e'thing in between... which was for the entire 3rd week of January, however, i only attended the last 2 days - the 20th and 21st of January....
These may become multiple entries as i swim through my memories and experiences!

When i heard about the festival way back in october/november 2006, i remember thinking to myself - I wonder where i will be n whether i will be able to make it ... and I am glad to report
that i was where i WANTED to be... I chose to not let last minute changes of other's plans affect my desire to be there...
it was a WONDERFUL trip - I went with 1 objective in mind - to attend the festival - which i did...but more than the talks (once i found the venue that is!), it was the talking which really got to me :)
and basking in the sun in the greens of diggi palace, Jaipur.

It is wonderful to feel warm and toasty in the middle of january which is the coldest month - and for someone like me who is frozen Nov - Feb - this was a god send! almost, as if God was patting me on the back for making it here despite my yawning exhaustion!
((did i mention, i think i love myself!!!! I love the fact thatt who i have become and continue to evolve into is the manifestation of my youthful aspirations and not only nor any longer a faction of my imagination!!!!)))

Well, as we spent 2 hours driving around in circles (literally! - I think Jaipur was made by someone with a fascination for mazes and treasure hunts - for in Jaipur- you can go around and then go back around the other way - cross your destination 4 times and still not spot it!)
I began to wonder whether our destination - the grand sounding - The Diggi Palace - was a palace/ gharana convert or a building which we were therefore obviously missing.... ironically, the next day we found that we had been circling the wrong circle anyway !!!
my head has begun to spin just remembering and writing about it - i hope, you my dear reader are faring better!

Hence, I ended up missing William Dalrymple's session which I was looking forward to... I await an update from my friends who attended....

Did i mention - Delhi is warmer than Jaipur - even during the day time... this i experienced much to my chagrin on sunday morning when i awoke frozen in the same position i had gone to sleep in.... to my room partner - thank you for ordering the tea - you saved me!!!!

There are some wonderful pictures which everyone took of this trip - I wonder whether the places (and us offcourse) are so perfect or was our experience so intoxicating!

I pause.... these are memories to be savoured and written about at leisure...